As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

getting geared up for school - hope to see all of you there!! Have a great last week of summer and like I said....take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt.              xxKaitlinxx

i love steven lane <3

Tonight was AMAZING!! Me, my parents, and Steven, and his parents all went riding. My mom and dad on dad's motorcycle, me and Steven on Steven's motorcycle, and Kim and Keith on Keith's motorcycle. Talk about feeling free...that right there my friends is the ticket to feeling free. It was so exciting when I put on all the protective gear and hopped on the bike. We didn't go very fast but when went on a pretty good trip. We went the back roads to Masfield and then home. Riding is like a whole different experience than riding in a boat or in a gokart. This is like WONDERFUL!!! Now I want a bike and all the matching suits and helmets. Steven is so awesome and his family are so welcoming...it's crazy because he is my best friend and we have tons of fun together. I think we have found a new hobby!! lol.... Man I'm so excited that I can't even think about anything else - so I'm out for the night before I end up making myself sound stupid!! Hope everyone is having a wonderful summer and making the best out of the freedom from school. Much Love - Kait       <3 i love steven!!!             

ride on           haha

!WARNING! This entry might be a little bit over your head when you read it...you might find it confusing OR you might totally understand....enjoy.

I'm in kind of an insensative mood right now. Mainly because I am exhausted from working. Things at the salon have been good, just starting up, but good. I am really enjoying having something to do in those moments of laziness. I found cleaning tanning beds, moping floors, doing laundry, and playing on rhapsody as a get away from thinking about EVERYTHING. It's like that way a lot at night time when I am by myself. I never thought that I would want to stray from thinking about everything...But I guess when you need a break from something you will go to all different sources. For me it's work and staying busy. Don't get me wrong I love down time...But a lot of my down time is spent with my family....no no no....most all of my time is spent with my family. I am not a big partier or "Whataburger Parking Lot Fan" or " I'm bored let's go drive around and see what's going on.... I guess maybe I don't look for the group of people. Maybe it's because I was raised to enjoy what I've got and the time that I have with it. I am comfortable enough to not have anything to do - or love alone time. I think sometimes that's what makes me different. Every kid searches for where they belong in highschool. Every kid wants to fit in and be accepted. I hurt for those who struggle....I do. Everyone struggles... Most people don't believe me when I say that though because they think I am out having the time of my life - when really I am just me and trying to find that joy of the moment. I try to look on the postitive side of things instead of trying to look for things that will MAKE me have a good time. Am I the only one who feels like sometimes the world is working against me? Am I the only one who feels like sometimes it just WON'T get better...things won't ever look up again? The thing is, I know that every bad day will build up to another happy and enjoyable moment. I know that the Lord has a brilliant plan for me and that he trys me everyday to test my strength. Maybe that's why he plans to make me weak...Because I am straying from him and he wants me to be so weak to fall into his arms. Is it pathetic for me to be the strongest with my relationship with Christ when I am at my weakest with the world?

That's the beauty of letting go ---- Being renewed again another day.

I use to want to be a physcologist....I don't think it's for me. I love helping people but I don't think that I could be strong enough to handle seeing how bad people struggle. That makes me realize how good I have it. I have a family who loves me, friends, a boyfriend that is more than that...he's an AWESOME friend - I am getting an education and preparing myself for life ahead... And I have the guidence from my parents and Christ....Other people have a hard enough time just getting out of bed and facing another day. If I had one wish, I think it would be to have enough power to help the world. Right now I'll try to do my best.

To everyone who is having a hard time right now, don't give up and don't give in. Just remember that last GREAT day you had, and know that there will be another one of those coming your way. Just like my last entry...we need to have the strength, faith, and dedication of a soldier.

-Kaitlin 

Wow... Today was like a real dedication shock to me....how about nondedication shock. Today I learned the meaning of fighting, love, strength, determination, team work, and of course dedication. Steven, me and his parents went to the airport today to greet the troops, and send Steven and his father on their way to the Ilse of Man. Now I didn't think that it was going to be any big deal to say " Hello, and welcome home!!" to any of the soldiers....but that's where I went wrong. We stood there waiting for the men and women to arrive and were amazed by all of the "welcome home" signs and "thanks for everything" signs. Yeah it took a ton of time and effort for the people who put those signs together....but I really realized it when the troops came piling in the gate.( moment of thought ) It was so awesome to see the men and women rush to their families and grab 'em, hug 'em, hold 'em, and share tears of joy. The only thing that was sad about this experience is that all of the soldiers came of that plane with a timid emotion....or try scared. It was like coming back to "HOME" was a culture shock. They are so use to being over there and killing people and war and bombs and death that happy people and positive encouragement is like a forgein object to them. It's so sad because when we got back from eating breakfast to drop Steven and Keith off, there was a soldier still at the gate. ( this is about 3 hours after greeting the troops-every other soldier was on their way home ) We asked the guy why he was still here and he said, " Well I have actually been home for two weeks and now it's time to go back." Only two weeks at home!! That's barely enough time to re-memorize what your family looks like or the floor plan of your house! That's barely enough time to catch back up on the fashion changes and go pick out a new wardrobe! Those men and women that say fighting is their job....it's not only their "JOB", but it's their life. It takes so much dedication to pour your life out on the line and risk everyday just so that everyone else here in America can live in peace. I thought it was dedication to stay focused at school, keeping participating in cheerleading, or even just putting my laundry away. Yeah well shows what kind of dedication I have. So thank you so much to everyone who puts their life on the line to keep me happy! You deserve much more than a thankyou....and hopefully someday you will be repayed.                            

+ pray for the troops +

Today is our cheerleading party and I am really excited because it'll be a ton of fun...you know swimming, eating, and just hanging out. Cheer camp is on Monday and I think we'll have a lot of fun this year. Our squad gets along really well with eachother and everyone seems to have that relaxed attitude about everything, which takes a lot of stress and pressure away.

I was thinking today about middle school and the people we hung out with. I remember our first middle school dance...haha my mom took pictures and everything before I went to the dance. But I find it crazy that so much has changed. It's like sometimes you find yourself way out of your element even when you are living it. I would find it as a shock or a slap in the face....( talking about not realizing how fast time goes by) ya ya...I have written one of these entrys in a long time. If you have seen the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants you'll know what I'm talking about...There is a little girl in the movie and she has a disease...Tibby asks her if she is scared, and she says not of dying but of running out of time. That's what I'm scared about...running out of time....if I think that time flys now what am I going to think when I'm 23 and living a life that is so chaotic that I only get a second to rest....I'm telling you now to enjoy what you've got because time will catch up with you. Live - Laugh - Love..... Im out                                                      kait